As I'm trying to tell my Korean colleague / fresh meat that this is abnormal, that most people in England aren't like this, the host of the party emerges from the bathroom to a roar of laughter and applause. He's a fat middle aged Frenchman and he's changed into traditional Indian dress and a turban. He looks fucking ridiculous. I try to back away, to avoid the inevitable photo of me in this moment that will one day appear to ruin my life, but everyone is crowding around, trapping me in the middle of it.


all that is to say

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46


in a post. I want to be remembered

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

bro i read nothing in my life

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

was it worth it

whats your name?

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

which magnetises chains of pins

plato

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

It Will Get Lighter

thank you

as in

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

Thank you, Jack

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

is this you as well