but i respect your search

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

I am below everything.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

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I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

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"Put a blanket."

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Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

no longer writing in the third person