Today I felt like starting
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine
you cannot feed someone truth
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
magnetisation/form
kind of mythopoesis
propensity within someone
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
as in
stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
so an active mazelike process
or never left