what do you mean
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
in a post. I want to be remembered
I am below everything.
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
but i respect your search
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Today I felt like starting
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.
so the method has to be autonomous
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you
hiding from the rain