it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

its good

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

in a post. I want to be remembered

you have a beautiful account btw

It Will Get Lighter

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

Better Lift

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

really i want the internet

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

much more tactility

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

autonomy of learning

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos