so at the end

I am below everything.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

its performative

Rain, starting

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

so the method has to be autonomous

bro i read nothing in my life

i dont understand magnetisation

i have read not even 1 book

i love it here

i was tempted to lie about my name

ahnaf abrar

is this you as well

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

was it worth it

sorry i am texting like a slav

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

like first name

what do you think my name is