"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Better Lift

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

no longer writing in the third person

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

hiding from the rain

Picture

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

we can only engage in such a way

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

not their contents

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

its performative

and the fake qualifier

Style

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

thank you

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

or never left

so the method has to be autonomous