Better Lift

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

barren land

is everyoneback on tumblr now

fw

have you read

its performative

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

as in

and the fake qualifier

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

feel you

your feed looks like my tumblr

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

i understand

thank you

yeah

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

i dont understand magnetisation

that looks like my instagram account

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.