that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

its good

propensity within someone

we need to be deconstructing our identities

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

its performative

1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

It Will Get Lighter

plato

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

whats your name?

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

no longer writing in the third person

magnetises a pin

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

so an active mazelike process

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

i understand

isaac newton