mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

and the fake qualifier

what do you think my name is

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Today I felt like starting

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

I am below everything.

its good

13, H, grate

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

ahnaf abrar

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

like first name

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

i have read not even 1 book

i really havent

i understand

yeah

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter