all that is to say

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

brb i will read and reply sincerely

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

It Will Get Lighter

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

as in

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

division of reality is straying away from it

Rain, starting

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i was tempted to lie about my name

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

like first name