theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

in a post. I want to be remembered

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

what do you mean

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

kind of mythopoesis

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

so the method has to be autonomous

division of reality is straying away from it

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

as in

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them