Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?
i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
Thank you, Jack
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
But seriously, thank you, Jack
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.
i dont understand magnetisation
Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.
Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?
idk
god being the centre magnet
Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.
so at the end
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
no longer writing in the third person