part of an old note. It will get lighter.
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Rain, starting

hiding from the rain

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

but really the thing should be autonomous

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

no longer writing in the third person

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I am below everything.

kind of mythopoesis

Lift Analysis

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

really i want the internet

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

Worse Lift