Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
Today I felt like starting
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.
propensity within someone
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying
i understand
yeah
ahnaf abrar
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
abrar?
yeah
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.