like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
not their contents
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate
so the method has to be autonomous
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
"Put a blanket."
division of reality is straying away from it
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
no longer writing in the third person
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you
its performative
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
Lift Analysis
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
you have a beautiful account btw
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it