i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

Worse Lift

13, H, grate

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

no longer writing in the third person

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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59


Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

"Put a blanket."

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Today I felt like starting

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

It Will Get Lighter

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

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Lift Analysis

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."