in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
propensity within someone
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
but really the thing should be autonomous
so an active mazelike process
in a post. I want to be remembered
we can only engage in such a way
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
no longer writing in the third person
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
i see a website
division of reality is straying away from it
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03