i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
kind of mythopoesis
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.you know who you are. no more time, not like
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. way too specific.Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.
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I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books