ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

no longer writing in the third person

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

so an active mazelike process

we need to be deconstructing our identities

ahnaf abrar

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

and the fake qualifier

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

magnetises a pin

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.

abrar?

i really havent

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

Thank you, Jack

god being the centre magnet

was it worth it

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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It Will Get Lighter

yes

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Thank you, Jack

It Will Get Lighter

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos