the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Worse Lift

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

i see a website

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.


autonomy of learning

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

I am below everything.

"Put a blanket."
or never left

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

magnetises a pin

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

plato

barren land

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

we need to be deconstructing our identities

so the method has to be autonomous

was it worth it

Can I see

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful