feel you
no longer writing in the third person
currently
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.
in a post. I want to be remembered
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
much more tactility
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
or never left
plato
its good
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
division of reality is straying away from it
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
i really havent