I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
in a post. I want to be remembered
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
currently
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
kind of mythopoesis
Thank you, Jack
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
and the fake qualifier
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
your feed looks like my tumblr