Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15
A roll of 50s is one of the items he dumps onto my table during the search. Of
course it is. He asks if I'm a delivery boy or a setter or this or that
diamond related job. I keep saying no, I'm enjoying hearing all of these new
words. Eventually I tell him that I work in film, which is kind of true. He
asks where I'm filming. I'm not filming. He tells me that I can't be that good
at it then. He then tells me that he made a film once, in the 80s. It was
called Pimlico Rats.
It Will Get Lighter
you know who you are. no more time, not like
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. way too
specific.
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i
want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game
engine
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i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it
i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some
insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording
of his website, something that could be found within it
