much more tactility

The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."


Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

13, H, grate

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13


After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Rain, starting



FOUNDING DOCUMENT

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

you have a beautiful account btw

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

It Will Get Lighter

propensity within someone

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

magnetisation/form

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

as in

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

really i want the internet

Better Lift

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

but really the thing should be autonomous

I am below everything.

but i respect your search

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

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i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue