think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

i dont understand magnetisation

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

we can only engage in such a way

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

IWGD

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

all that is to say

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes. The conversation drifts to the pleasantness of warm lighting and whether anyone needs a smart home. I interrupt her to make a joke about the French Raj as he runs up the causeway. We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

division of reality is straying away from it

After I get away from the old racist failed actor, I go to see my Korean colleague. He's just arrived in London and I want to see how he's handling the party. We'd been invited as fresh meat for some of the older, gayer attendees. We aren't aware of that.

The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos