feel you

Actual born-Londoners aren't LARPing like this, they sold their shite family home for a million pounds and moved to Malaga years ago. They have their culture and they've taken it elsewhere.

that looks like my instagram account

no i haven't really read anything

which magnetises chains of pins

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

i understand

no like which do people call me

...

was it worth it

i love it here

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

isaac

abrar?

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

its good

After I get away from the old racist failed actor, I go to see my Korean colleague. He's just arrived in London and I want to see how he's handling the party. We'd been invited as fresh meat for some of the older, gayer attendees. We aren't aware of that.

Pimlico Rats

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

thank you

i see a website

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

I imagine that some lab-grown 29-year-old from Woking with a mind honed to identify individuals who fit the profile of Real Londoner (as conceived of by 50 opinion-polled racist builders and their wives in the Midlands) picks a stubborn local who can still somehow afford to live here and passes him along to some creative studio.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

IWGD

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

Thank you, Jack

part of an old note. It will get lighter.