Thank you, Jack

but really the thing should be autonomous

The Hatton geezer (fuck off) reminds me of this old failed actor who I'd met at a party a few years ago, another man out of time and out of place. This actor had scored a minor role in Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and never really let go of it, had gone on to build his whole identity around it. I can't really blame him.

2 (actually index). two is company

in a post. I want to be remembered

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

There is a pretty persistent ambient hate in England, a lot of people say vile shit about Muslims or immigrants or whatever, but in my experience most people aren't actual white supremacists. They have a black friend who they get a beer with. One of the good ones. Etc.

really i want the internet

My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.

not so on: yvf(wthw)

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

I catch him on his way to the bar, telling him about this old racist failed actor that I'm avoiding. That I'm failing to confront. I get the sense he's avoiding people too. We get our drinks and find a corner. We chat for a bit. He's managing just fine.

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

...

As we're stood there I notice a middle-aged woman staring at us across the room. I'm trying to catch her gaze, but its kind of vacant. I guess she sees me looking and considers it to be an invitation. She floats over to us in this strange dazed way, and on the approach I realise she's staring at (through?) my Korean colleague / fresh meat. She's saying wow, wow, wow. She seems genuinely so delighted, so shocked, so elated.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50


mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

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