think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

i really havent

and the fake qualifier

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

so the method has to be autonomous

ahnaf abrar

i want to do that too

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

kind of mythopoesis

feel you

no longer writing in the third person

Today I felt like starting

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

you cannot feed someone truth

propensity within someone

Better Lift

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books



magnetisation/form

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

But seriously, thank you, Jack

i understand

sorry i am texting like a slav

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

i am quite illiterate on producing technology