Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

December 2025

what do you think my name is

was it worth it


whats your name?

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

send link

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason


nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i really havent

you cannot feed someone truth

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

so at the end


i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

so an active mazelike process

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46


i was tempted to lie about my name

It Will Get Lighter

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

and the fake qualifier