that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
hiding from the rain
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
sorry i am texting like a slav
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
what do you mean
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
Today I felt like starting
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
i love it here
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
plato
thank you
The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.
it is hopeful
Better Lift
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
i dont understand magnetisation
I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?
I am below everything.
isaac newton
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
plato
magnetisation/form