is everyoneback on tumblr now

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

its performative

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

Thank you, Jack

propensity within someone

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that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

Rain, starting

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

But seriously, thank you, Jack, for telling me that I could submit this to a high-level literary magazine or creative nonfiction outlet with some minor tweaks. I don't think I will do that.

no longer writing in the third person

There is a pretty persistent ambient hate in England, a lot of people say vile shit about Muslims or immigrants or whatever, but in my experience most people aren't actual white supremacists. They have a black friend who they get a beer with. One of the good ones. Etc.

so an active mazelike process

...

so the method has to be autonomous

It's loud and he's gone deaf in one ear, so I don't think he's really hearing anything I'm trying to say. We're both pretty drunk too. It's making for a kind of surreal interactive Business Insider YouTube video of a conversation. He talks, waits for my response, sees my mouth moving but doesn't hear my words, then he imagines something in their place, and replies to that. At least I don't really have to do anything but drink and mime and listen to a lot of bullshit fake gangster talk, being an actor, boxing, the old days, blah blah blah.

i was tempted to lie about my name

It Will Get Lighter

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

sorry i am texting like a slav

i want to do that too

what do you mean

I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.

yeah

not their contents

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful