the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

no i haven't really read anything

its performative


December 2025

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

like first name

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

i really havent

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

was it worth it

send link

the site i am dreaming

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

Slug

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

propensity within someone

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models


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Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression


Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

god being the centre magnet

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext