lol

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

so the method has to be autonomous

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

bro i read nothing in my life

13, H, grate

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

Worse Lift

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

plato

yeah

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

FOUNDING DOCUMENT


Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

so an active mazelike process

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

what do you think my name is

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

in a post. I want to be remembered

sorry i am texting like a slav

i was tempted to lie about my name

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

"Put a blanket."

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08