my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

so an active mazelike process

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

was it worth it

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

i was tempted to lie about my name

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

is this you as well

wait what is that

that looks like my instagram account

and the fake qualifier

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

what do you think my name is

was it worth it

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

like first name

December 2025

ahnaf abrar

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

and the fake qualifier

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.