i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

its performative


so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

as in

not their contents

really i want the internet

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

all that is to say


i really havent

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

no i haven't really read anything

much more tactility

brb i will read and reply sincerely

no longer writing in the third person

division of reality is straying away from it

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.