but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
It's loud and he's gone deaf in one ear, so I don't think he's really hearing anything I'm trying to say. We're both pretty drunk too. It's making for a kind of surreal interactive Business Insider YouTube video of a conversation. He talks, waits for my response, sees my mouth moving but doesn't hear my words, then he imagines something in their place, and replies to that. At least I don't really have to do anything but drink and mime and listen to a lot of bullshit fake gangster talk, being an actor, boxing, the old days, blah blah blah.
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
so at the end
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.
in a post. I want to be remembered
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
feel you
which magnetises chains of pins
wait what is that
and the fake qualifier
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
yeah
Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.
lol yea
The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.
i am quite illiterate on producing technology
you have a beautiful account btw
so an active mazelike process
Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?
Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
hiding from the rain
isaac
i want to do that too
i have read not even 1 book