Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

Rain, starting

i was tempted to lie about my name

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after dusk, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

feel you

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

ahnaf abrar

not their contents

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

its performative

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

what do you think my name is

plato

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

we need to be deconstructing our identities

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

no like which do people call me

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

i really havent

Worse Lift

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

isaac newton

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

bro i read nothing in my life

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.