Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

yeah

lol

all that is to say

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

Lift Analysis

its performative

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

so at the end

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

Today I felt like starting

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

...

Lift Analysis

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

yes

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given