i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

we can only engage in such a way

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

you have a beautiful account btw

no longer writing in the third person

what do you mean

bro i read nothing in my life

no i haven't really read anything

A roll of 50s is one of the items he dumps onto my table during the search. Of course it is. He asks if I'm a delivery boy or a setter or this or that diamond related job. I keep saying no, I'm enjoying hearing all of these new words. Eventually I tell him that I work in film, which is kind of true. He asks where I'm filming. I'm not filming. He tells me that I can't be that good at it then. He then tells me that he made a film once, in the 80s. It was called Pimlico Rats.

Rain, starting

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

ahnaf abrar

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

hello reader,

plato

Slug

He was cast as the guy who gets picked up and thrown out of the poker game to set the scene before the main characters arrive. Out of Real London and into real London, a discarded prop, at this party, chatting to me.


not so on: yvf(wthw)

I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

i have read not even 1 book

ion

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

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