feel you
and the fake qualifier
was it worth it
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class
Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.
i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then
December 2025
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
yeah
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
i love it here
you cannot feed someone truth
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
idk