ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

no like which do people call me

ahnaf abrar

is this you as well

have you read

no i haven't really read anything

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

i understand

god being the centre magnet

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

13, H, grate

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

Can I see

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

was it worth it

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

"Put a blanket."

and the fake qualifier

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

you have a beautiful account btw

was it worth it


yes