I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

Rain, starting

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day. I created this site.

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

we need to be deconstructing our identities

plato

stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time

division of reality is straying away from it

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

i want to do that too

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

as in

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

i was tempted to lie about my name

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything