She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
in a post. I want to be remembered
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
no longer writing in the third person
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
really i want the internet
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
its good
magnetises a pin
magnetisation/form
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
not their contents
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you