I am below everything.

have you read

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it is hopeful

currently

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

Rain, starting

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

i dont understand magnetisation

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Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

the site i am dreaming

division of reality is straying away from it

Picture

hiding from the rain

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate