Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Better Lift

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

Picture

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it. 

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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

hiding from the rain

I am below everything.

It Will Get Lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

no longer writing in the third person

Style

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

Rain, starting

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.