"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
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Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

ahnaf abrar

we need to be deconstructing our identities

plato

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

was it worth it

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.



We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.