sorry i am texting like a slav

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.

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i was tempted to lie about my name

yeah

what do you think my name is

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

ahnaf abrar

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

like first name

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

feel you

lol

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

no longer writing in the third person

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

no like which do people call me

Style

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

propensity within someone

abrar?