Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

"Put a blanket."

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

I am below everything.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

i see a website

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

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propensity within someone

Better Lift

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

yes

but really the thing should be autonomous

Worse Lift

Better Lift

kind of mythopoesis

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

ion

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.