the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Today I felt like starting

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

ahnaf abrar

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

all that is to say

but really the thing should be autonomous

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

Rain, starting

god being the centre magnet

its performative

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

what do you mean

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

isaac newton

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

magnetisation/form

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

in a post. I want to be remembered

the site i am dreaming